London Calling

"Don't Forget"

2010-03-20T16:10:00.000-07:00

This is actually a perfect title to the discussion I'm about to give haha.

I saw, "Remember Me" today. I was so excited for it because Robert Pattinson looked amazing just in the trailer!! I mean cute yes, but also that he's gonna do a great job and HE DID!!

The ending was the most shocking, I did NOT see that coming!! I want to see the movie again, get the dvd and everything but wow, that ending, sad and unexpected. I mean, I knew that there was going to be tragedy in the beginning and one in the end but I didnt know what it was going to be and that ending was something I didnt see coming at all, not until well ya...

Robert Pattinson is very talented as Tyler Hawkins the troubled, lost young man who finds love and understanding in his fellow college student Aly Craig.
I recommend it, but BE PREPARED. It's filled with drama and an ending that, just be prepared.

There's more things I'd like to share but I'll save that for later. Until I come up with a proper song title or lyric, haha. Bye for now.

Check out, "Remember Me"!!

"Troubled"

2010-03-12T21:21:00.001-08:00

This is a cool song I JUST heard for the first time by Land of Talk, one of my favorite indie bands. Elizabeth Powell is amazing...!!

I have a pretty impressive collection of thinspiration saved to my pen drive. I haven't seen too much lately that has really caught my eye, it's kind of disappointing..I like finding new thinspiration and saving, the more the better. The prettier the better. But oh well, hoepfully this Spring Break week a bunch of great, new photos will pop up online.

On Monday we head to Houston for my Tuesday appointment with the ED doctor. I know what's gonna be said and what's gonna happen. It's happen the last past like 2 or 3 times. I need to have a diet plan and eat healthier-blah, blah, blah...I really dont see the point in going there anymore but I like the road trip so I'll put up with it. Ha.

Well that's all for now. The crush I had sucks. I am fed up with him and all boys at my school.
Fuck 'em. Can I just graduate already? May can't come soon enough...

"I Wont Let You Down"

2010-03-05T07:41:00.001-08:00

I feel completely invisible in my media tech class. That's the one with the boy I like, well even if I'm right in front of him and his friend (my other team member) when I ask a question, no one answers. Am I that unimportant?

Why am I so invisible? I feel bad about not being in class but my being there doesn't make a difference. I dont make a difference. They are doing whatever they want, they dont need me.

But I still feel bad about not being there...ugh, hopefully next week will be better.

(Entry title song is by The Subways)

"Set The Fire To The Third Bar"

2010-02-27T12:40:00.000-08:00

That is the beautiful song used in the trailer for the movie, "Dear John". I just came back from seeing it. Finally, I can check that one off my list of movies to see this spring.

It was alright. Channing Tatum's crying scenes were pretty satisfying and Amanda Seyfried looked so beautiful in the film. They kept to the book, but I think the movie should've been longer so they could add some scenes; make others longer. The situations were there, but the way they came about were different. I liked the book much better, I think the pace and flow of the movie was off but I'm still really happy I got to see it.

Up Next:

Kick-Ass
The Runaways
Percy Jackson and the Olympians
Remember Me
The Last Song (whose trailer I saw, obviously, before, "Dear John" started ha)

Also maybe "The Eagle of the Ninth". It stars Channing Tatum and one of my fave actors, Jamie Bell. I'll probably wait a while for that one. But that's the spring list.

Cant wait to get them all done!!

"Drumming"

2010-02-18T18:47:00.000-08:00

That's the sound I hear, everytime he comes near.

Ha, that's a rip-off of some lyrics to a really good Florence and the Machine song called, "Drumming". I've been listening to her all day on my iPod.

"Blinding" is in my head right now. That song is awesome. I dont know what else to say really. I like a boy, but that's nothing new and neither is this crush.

His eyes are really blue...and no it's not Aj. It's someone I haven't mentioned, at least not here.

Bye for now!!

"Chew Me Up & Spit Me Out"

2010-02-06T16:58:00.000-08:00

My week has been shit because the medicine I was put on had evil side effects. I am on a new one and guess who just made it worse? That's right!! Sara.

Fuck!!!

She got pissed at me for speaking my mind. Wtf? I dont even know why I bother anymore...

Fuck it.

"Blue Skies"

2010-01-22T20:12:00.000-08:00

Not for a long time for me....

"Can't Let Go"

2010-01-22T17:52:00.000-08:00

Found out this week that I have OCD. WTF? That's the diagnosis my psychiatrist gave me after an hour or so of talking. Ha. They changed my mediciation.

I hate how lonely Jessica and her friends make me feel. There can be like 6 people in the room and I feel all alone.

I hate school and the people there make me hate myself. I cant wait to get out. Fuck!! I wish it would all just go away, the stress, the worry, everything.

"When You're Evil"

2010-01-18T17:30:00.000-08:00

I didn't know what other title to put for this ha. Today I finished watching the foreign film, "Evil". It stars Andreas Wilson. He's a beautiful model/actor who plays Erik, a boy from an abusive household who gets transferred to a boarding school where the uperclassmen harrass and humiliate the lowerclassman.

He does an amazing job as Erik. I'd explain it all but I'm too tired to make a long post haha.
Watch it!! It was nominated for Best Foreign Film at the Academy Awards in 2004.

That's all the news I have to report for now. Post again tomorrow, maybe.

"Lotta Love"

2010-01-10T15:48:00.000-08:00

That's a song from the B-side of She and Him's first album Volume One. I wish I had the B-side.

Listening to The Pretty Reckless. It's been so cold lately, grrr!!!

Bri finally called yesterday, I was so worried!!! Nothing else to report except that exams are this week and I have a lot of studying to do (oh joy). Early release on Friday, yay!!!

All for now.

I got "Lotta Love" for Taylor Momsen :)

"Make Me Wanna Die"

2010-01-05T18:51:00.000-08:00

Had some pizza for dinner, it was delicious but I feel like a total fat ass!!!

A.J. didnt feel like IMing me at first, then he did. Then him and Sara BOTH logged off!!!

WTF?!

I feel like shit!!!

I need someone to talk to...

"Courage"

2010-01-05T07:56:00.000-08:00

I dont wanna eat anymore but it's everywhere!!!

My food phobias are worse than ever today. As soon as I woke up I hated myself and felt fat.
I wanna start purging again. Ugh...

Hopefully at noon I can talk to my ED friend, maybe she can help me. :(

I hate that I'm fat and I hate that I eat but I'm always hungry, wtf?!

Today is starting out just great...

Good thing I have a psychologist appointment right after school today...

"Why Do You Let Me Stay Here?"

2010-01-02T16:15:00.000-08:00

That's a song from She & Him. I really like that band, Zooey Deschanel is pretty awesome.

I saw "It's Complicated" last night AND "500 Days of Summer". It made me cry twice!!
Joseph Gordon Levitt was great and adorable, I thought he gave a great performance in this like he does in everything else.

The character of Summer I kind of didn't like, which is disappointing...

"It's Complicated" was funny, definitely adult humor. <3 Hunter Parrish, was beautiful!!

Okay, I dont know what else to say...so bye for now!!

"Lemon"

2009-12-31T14:19:00.000-08:00

I like that Katy Rose song. It comes out in the ending credits of one of my favorite movies, "Thirteen" which stars the One and Only Evan Rachel Wood.....

FINALLY saw "Jennifer's Body" last night. And again this afternoon, yes!!!!
Ahahaha, I liked that movie!!! The writing was pretty dumb but I thought Megan Fox and Amanda Seyfried did a good job. Johnny Simmons (Chip) and Kyle Gallner (Colin, A.K.A. the reason I wanted to see this movie in the first place) were good too.

:(

I think I want to buy that movie. Dont pay attention to what people say, check the movie out for yourself!!! You might be suprised...!!!

Post Number 20!!!!!!

2009-12-29T19:47:00.000-08:00

Sara made me listen to 3 Lady Gaga songs tonight, 2 of them were good. I'm being corrupted!!!

Last week off before we go back to school, yaaaaayyyy...........

I like shopping, and sleep.

I dont know what else to say...so bye?

"Don't You Love Her Madly"

2009-12-25T12:29:00.000-08:00

That's a cool song by The Doors used in a Cory Kennedy video I like on YouTube.

I really aspire to be a hipster. I love how thin they are and how much fun they have and their style is pretty awesome.

New inspiration!!!!!

Cory Kennedy is the only famous hipster I know of, but I'm sure there's more. Besides Mark, of the awesome Cobrasnake...look it up!!!!

"La La Land"

2009-12-21T18:50:00.000-08:00

Just found out Hunter Parrish has a fansite, yay!!!!! It's a nice one too, I hope it doesn't close like the first one did!!!

Hunter Parrish is fantastic, I hope I can see, "It's Complicated" soon. Mom promised me!
Bored like you wouldn't believe....I never know what to do online and what I could do, I dont feel like doing. WTF?

Listened to Demi Lovato's first cd again today. Hadn't listened to it in a while...
Bored. Bored. Bored. Took a 5 hour nap, now what????

Not hungry, I just think I am. Maybe I should get inspired....eh.

Bye for now

"Mr. Blue"

2009-12-16T17:59:00.000-08:00

That's a beautiful song by Catherine Feeny that I heard in a, "Nearly Famous" episode. I just finished listening to it. Gonna give my friend a gift tomorrow.
My stomach hurts. Need to get offline.
Staying up late tonight cause I took 3 naps today.

Wish me luck tomorrow morning, that I dont wake up grouchy.

Peace

"Think Of You"

2009-12-14T18:53:00.001-08:00

That's a beautiful song by Reeve Carney & The Revolving Band. He has another band called Carney whose debut album comes out next year. Reeve landed the role as Peter Parker in the broadway version of Spiderman alongside Evan Rachel Wood!!! <3

Evan appears in a video for their first single, "Love Me Chase Me" (which is awwwwesoooome!!!!!)

Youtube the video and the song "Think Of You"!!!

Right now I'm thinking of A.J, why? I dont know... :(

"Who I Am"

2009-12-13T15:16:00.000-08:00

That's the awesome first single from Nick Jonas and the Administration!!!! Weird name but who cares?! It's Nick Jonas!!! haha

This song is amazing and also so relatable for me.

I am soo going to marry Nick Jonas but before I do, I would really, really love to sing a duet with him. Oh that would be magical!!!

One more reason I wish I was Miley!!

xoxo

"Don't Wanna Be Torn"

2009-12-11T16:07:00.000-08:00

That's my favorite Hannah Montana song EVER!! It's finishing up right now. Miley rocks!!

I can relate to this song so much. I feel real horrible at the moment actually. Dont wanna go into it, but here's a link to the song if you wanna know how I'm feeling.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LV_sAovajSM

One of the most relatable songs I've ever heard.

"She's Got You High"

2009-12-06T14:53:00.000-08:00

That is the name of a song that they have played throughout most of the parts of a really cool British show that I wish would get a second series!! It's called, "Nearly Famous". I had heard of it when it premiered 2 years ago but I just started watching it this week. I love it!!!! I started watching it because I am now in L.O.V.E. with the star Aaron Johnson. He plays Owen Stephens, the troubled musician, oh my God!!! lol He does a really good job. I like the little group on that show, everyone did a decent job. Unfortunately the show only lasted one series, 6 parts total but I'm watching part 4 on YouTube so hopefully by the end of this week I'll have seen the whole series!!!

This show is great and it totally sucks that the Salanger School of Performing Arts in London isn't real because I really wanna go there!! :)

I <3 Aaron Johnson, he's beautiful!!!

"Blender"

2009-12-01T17:57:00.000-08:00

I just finished listening to that song by The Pretty Reckless. It's pretty good. It's the first day of December!! Yay!!! Too bad it only snows here once every 100 years... :(

Everyone lies. Eneida even!! Ugh, I thought I could trust her!! Never get involved with anyone in high school. EVER.

I cant wait for college. Seriously, this place sucks. But anyways...saw some "Criminal Minds" tonight. Lol, Jake Richardson. Awww....i love him. He has a fan site now. Google him!!

Umm...I dont know what else to say tonight. I'll listen to more music tomorrow and try to write my story. Yay!!!

Night

"Satellite Heart"

2009-11-29T15:32:00.000-08:00

That's an awesome song by Anya Marina off the "New Moon" soundtrack. I just saw the movie today, it was good!!! I liked it. I'm Team Edward but Taylor's abs were niiice, haha.

Saw trailers to some movies I really wanna see, especially the "Remember Me" (Robert Pattinson's new movie) trailer. OMG, I HAVE to see that!!! lol

So today is not so bad. Last night was horrible. I hardly slept. The thoughts came back in church!! Ugh!!!

I really hope the week brings good things. I'm so nervous. I just wanna get some sleep tonight and have at least one good day this weekend. "New Moon" is helping to make that possible.

And Kristen Stewart did better in this one than she did in "Twilight".
Come on girl, you know you're good. Show it!!!

"I Wasn't Prepared"

2009-11-28T17:57:00.000-08:00

I know I should probably just ignore it but I'm such a masochist that I can't.
And the one person I wanna talk to, I'm forcing myself not to.

How about some Spencer Reid? Cause DAMN that episode looks GOOOOD!!!

You brighten my day Matthew Gray Gubler :)

"Is There Anybody Going To Listen To My Story...?"

2009-11-28T17:39:00.000-08:00

Internet works, for now. I finally see "New Moon" tomorrow, thank God!!!!
Saw some of 'Sweeney Todd' and "Little Miss Sunshine" this morning.
"Criminal Minds" is now one of my favorite shows, I watch it everyday. I'm gonna watch it after this as a matter of fact.

I <3 Matthew Gray Gubler (Dr. Spencer Reid)
He's so funny!! :)

School starts again on Monday. Great, just as I was getting used to being away from that crap. Well, whatever. I have some ideas in my head to keep me busy, hopefully they turn out awesome!!

Night

"He Loves You Not"

2009-11-24T10:14:00.000-08:00

Internet is still down. It MIGHT be fixed today. I really hope so. I wanna hear some more 'Pretty Reckless'. I haven't listened to "Sleeze Sister" in forever!!!

A.J. frustrates me and yet I still love him. Ugh!!! Why does he have to be so cute?? :(

Last day of school day before Thanksgiving break. Thank God!! I cant until tomorrow to start the holiday. I love not having school. Hopefully we can go to Sam's.

I was hungry but thinspiration worked it's magic. Finally! It's about time.

That's all for now, more tonight if comp is fixed.

"Lost At Sea"

2009-11-18T19:21:00.000-08:00

Haven't posted in forever. Comp has been down, using my mom's comp.
Things are fine. Could be worse. Made a new friend. He's in my class. He's nice, he helps me.
Might go see "New Moon" at midnight tomorrow, with Eneida. :)
It's part of a class assignment but awesome!!! I really hope I get to see it. :D

That's about it really. Grades are lowering. I'm starting to not give a s*** but whatever, it's Senioritis haha.

Night

"Here We Go Again"

2009-11-06T16:46:00.000-08:00

After reading my last post I realized how dumb I sound (not about you Sara). Not to be depressed but just how desperate I sounded. Ugh...anyways. That guy is whatever and cute. I hung with Bishop today. That was the first time him and I ever really talked or anything. He was high at the time but whatever, I take what I can get haha.

I will marry Ryan Kelley. Google him. He is perfect and so talented! He just added me on MySpace, yay!!!

"Dont You Dare"

2009-11-04T16:30:00.001-08:00

Gonna be posting a lot. Have a lot to say these days. Sara's great, she's amazing, I'm so happy to have her as a friend.

Sara, I love you!!!! You're awesome, im so lucky, you have no idea!!!

I have this unbelievable need to fix things. I need some time in a psych ward.

ANYWAAAAYS............i fucked shit up again. Bishop!!!! It's time Bishop!!!

I wanna die.

"In This Hole we have built, we get further and further, further, further from the world..."

2009-11-04T16:06:00.000-08:00

I feel like I'm in a hole I cant get out of. With all these voices in my head, all this depression and eating stuff. I want it to go away. Contemplating doing some shit with Bishop. I might call him...I want someone to talk me out of it.

He calls her babe. Then he got off. I dont know what to do. I feel different things all at the same time. I want to do something, anything to make all this crap in my head go away!!!

I hate him. I love him. I want to stop loving him but I CAN'T and I dont know why!!! Somebody please help me!!

"Dear all of you who've wronged me, I am, I am a Zombie"

2009-10-30T19:52:00.000-07:00

That's the lyrics to my favorite 'Pretty Reckless' song. It's called "Zombie". It's A-W-E-S-O-M-E and the lyrics are relatable and amazing. Taylor Momsen knows her stuff!!

I like this whole BlogSpot thing, I'm going to definitely be posting more often. Hope someone actually reads it once in a while...well night everyone.

Sweet Dreams

xoxo

"Go Away"

2009-10-30T19:45:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in forever!!! I completely forgot I had a blog spot account, haha. A lot of stuff has gone on, good and bad. I'm realizing NOW that I have to acheive my thiness goal. I'm looking at as much thinspiration as I can and restricting as much as I can so I can be thin enough to where I can feel good and where I can say F-you to everyone who hurts me.

I still am in loove with fashion, music and over the past few months I have been getting into song writing, some of the stuff is okay some of it's blah but I like writing. It's a great release for me.

NEW OBSESSIONS:
Taylor Momsen
and her band
The Pretty Reckless

What's goin on with everyone else?